we be (bed) buggin'

yeah. i wish it wasnt true but it literally is. the burg'in pad was bed-buggin'. are you feeling itchy? these past few days have been the most exhausting, disgusting, tiring days ever. i literally felt like a walking disease (how does paris hilton live like this?) and felt nowhere was safe to sit, lie down, or even touch. thankfully, annie is the coolest and awesomest person ever and let me leave work to take care of this nonsense. le join was chill (after having a mini bd which caused one of my bd's) with the sitch too as it couldve affected our apt too. then i learned dee was actually the one to help calm le join down so big thanks to her too. and a huge thanks to my mans parents who helped get rid of those buggers by finding the bed bug king.

it all began thursday. ive been itchy but i thought it mightve been the new lotion ive been using. my man didnt have any bites whatsoever but when he woke up thursday morning, he saw a little bugger and bolted off to work to do some research. i woke up to 6 mixed calls and a voicemail from my man. sure enough, the little bugger he saw a bed bug. let the panic begin! we werent sure how long weve been sleeping with these things (EW!) but had a feeling it mightve been a while since the neighbor directly above him had them months ago. right around the time my mans ceiling collapsed. ugh. im getting nauseous and itchy again just writing about this. after many phone calls back and forth, kickass annie let me leave work so i could go back to the bk crib and start garbage bagging the bedding and pretty much everything else. nasty.

although there never really is a good time for bedbugs, this day wasnt exactly ideal either. first, my man had an interview that night. how could he think about clinching a job when he had to deal with bed bugs. ew. gross. secondly, we both stopped buying the greens and basically started our hiatus on the tokes. ahhhh, i never wanted a bowl so bad though. my man however, was fiending for a ciggie but he stayed strong and just said no no no. lastly, le join usually has the weekend off from work so she goes out to li. of course, she had work on friday and saturday so would be staying in the city. argh! so basically, there were rough times ahead.

the bed-buggin' timeline:
thursday morning - my man sees the bugs. does the research. bugs out (pun intended, obv!).
thursday afternoon - le join bugs out. bugs me out. i leave early to start bagging while in a furious, scared, and guilty (for possibly spreading this epidemic) mode.
thursday evening - my man goes on his interview and i nap (bagging is exhausting!).
thursday night - le join calms down and we make up and my man and i head over to the do to to to spend the night. yes. the three of us had a slumber party in the studio apt. very interesting night.
friday morning/afternoon - i go to work and my man takes care of buggy business with the bed bug king.
friday evening/night - i meet my man at the laundromat to help fold every article of clothing hes ever owned plus all the clothes i had at his place. he has a mini bd and i calm him down. we head back to my place to drop off my clothes and to do a preliminary check to make sure the do to to aint buggy. then i have a bd and my man calms me down. then, my bro calls for girl/slutty hobag advice from my man.
friday/saturday midnight - we go to my convertible to drive out to jersey. just to fit the theme of the past two days, we walk out to rain... and we parked the car with the top down. thank goodness my cars got leather seats. we wiped the rain off and drove away laughing. what else can you do in a sitch like that?
saturday morning - apt hunting online and via phone from jersey with my man and his 'rents. i also watched a kickin ep of flight of the concords. that shit is damn funny.
saturday afternoon - meet the exterminator at my apt. luckily, those buggers didnt travel to my place but i got a precautionary spray down done anyway. not taking any chances. then it was a fun domestic trip to bed bath and beyond and the container store.
saturday evening/night - have dinner at a cute pub. cover the mattresses at do to to with vinyl covers (plastic sheets = dead sexy) then head back to dead bug land aka the bk apt. get rid of the mattress. pump out the aerobed and invite some neighbors over for some wine (very much needed after this debacle).

sunday was spent working with the maj while my man checked out apts in the village. hes looking at places back on the mainland aka manhattan. so we went through some crazy grief this weekend but im gonna take this experience as a blessing in disguise. maybe my man will find a kickin place thats better than his orig apt in greenwich village. hopefully after this new lease, my man can finally move in with me or at least we can officially live together elsewhere. why does everything take forever to be official in this relationship? anyhoo, i did learn that my man and i make a great team. we time our bds perfectly so that we can help each other out. i stay strong and level-headed when he feels outta control and he picks me up when im feeling down. there are lyrics in the kinks apeman that really describes how we are to a t: "ill be your tarzan, youll be my jane. ill keep you warm, and youll keep my sane. and we'll sit in the trees and eat bananas all day just like an apeman."

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pesach it to me

so ive been feeling much much better since i last wrote. had a mini bd. ok, kinda major bd. i break down every few months about my living sitch and then snap out of it when i realize that i have a pretty amazing support system and well, i gotta just deal with how my life is for now. sure, i have responsibilities that really shouldnt be mine, but hey, we all get dealt cards that we dont want. we just gotta play 'em out the best way we can. so thanks to my buds and my man. it still amazes me that i have these wonderful people in my life.

anyway, steering away from my dark days, lets lean towards the dark days of the jews. ah, this past weekend was my very first seder. before we left for jersey, i had my man brief me on the story of passover. basically the jews were slaves in egypt. moses who was a jew but didnt know was a jew then found out he was a jew was told by god to go up to the pharoah and tell him to suck it and let his people (the jews) go. so passover is all about remembering that story. theres bitter herbs, sweet charoset (a fun fruity mixture), matzoh (bc the jews were on the run), salt water, 10 plagues (with fun finger puppets), the afikomen (i found it the first night and won a $15 itunes card. go me!), manischevitz (got a lil buzzed after half a glass), and just a delish dinner (man i love me some brisket). it was a learning experience with great food and good times.

the first nights seder was held at my mans parents house. it was a cute lil gathering of just my man, me, his bro, his 'rents, and his aunt. thats why we all participated in looking for the afikomen (its usually done by the kids). i know, im learning all this new hebrew lingo. its awesome. i love going to these holiday events. its like the cliffs notes of hebrew school (pronounced shool, of course). the matzoh ball soup was absolutely delicious. i actually ate half of my gefilte fish and all of my brisket. mmmmmmmm. brisket. hot, cold, ill eat it any which way.

the second nights seder was held at my mans aunts house. this was a lil bigger with cousins and lil kids. ok. there were 4 year old twin girls, a 1 year old girl and a 3 month old girl. all adorable, obv. the twins actually made their own haggadahs in nursery school so they sang along to their own work and asked the 4 questions in the most entertaining way ive ever seen. of course the twins found the afikomen that night. then after a fun game of duck duck goose, my man and i headed back to ny.

i really am so lucky that my mans fam is so cool and nice and inviting. i love soaking in as much jewish culture as i can when im with them. its funny bc a girl at work just got engaged. shes italian and catholic and her man is jewish. theyre getting married in a church. i was like, "youre not converting?" and she goes, "im making him convert" (obv joking). the more i learn, the more appealing it is to me. maybe its just 'cause im learning from awesome people. who knows.

happy pesach, people!

solitude spiral

to be alone. for some reason, that deep dark hole feels so inviting to me. to abandon everyone and just be by myself. i hate feeling this way but at the same time, it feels a lot easier to be this way. like being around people and friends, takes effort that i dont have the energy for anymore. my minds been in overdrive and its telling me to just fall. fall into the dark hole. stay in the dark hole alone bc thats where i belong. one part of me tells me to get help but the other part argues back. other people have better things to do than to hear me mope and complain. i dont even know what i would complain about. i just feel down. i feel black (not just blue). i dont have the energy to be happy anymore. im scared about the weddings coming up bc theyre supposed to be joyous occasions and i feel as if ill just be a downer. i feel like i cant ever be happy again. truly happy. the weird thing is, there wasnt an event that triggered this feeling. it just washed over me like a huge wave. and now im under it and i dont think i can get out. the dark. it sounds so good.

1 year officially

can you believe it. tomorrow marks the 1 year anniversary of title-land. when the btj became the bf. actually tonight is the 1 year anniversary of when i sent the email. we actually have 2 anniversaries. 4/10/07 is the official anniversary and 8/15/06 is the unofficial anniversary. i actually picked that date myself (it was the date of the first yankee game my man ever took me to). so, here are a bunch of important dates for me and my man.

7/17/06 - contact! well through email anyway. i winked at him over the weekend and he responded back with a cute email. the email trail begins and lasts for a bit. we sent long-ass emails (at one point i thought he was competing with me to see if he can write longer emails than i do) to each other for a week and then exchange the digits. woo hoo!

7/25/06 - contact! well, we finally meet in person. i remember this day so well bc it was also the day i went on the job interview that got me outta li and into nyc. so after my interviews, i trekked it back to the peach pitt after dark. i got a call from my man and he invited me over to his place for a lil smoky afternoon. i begged jamie to come with since ive never met this guy before but she let me go by myself in case a hook up opportunity popped up. alas, we didnt make out... that day but it didnt take too long before we made any physical contact ;)

8/15/06 - since the day i met him, we hung out about twice a week. during one of those hangouts, my man mentioned taking me a yankee game. i brushed off that comment bc why would he take just a friend (a cute one too) to a game. well, the man lived up to his word and took me to my first yankee game. man. ive been hooked ever since, the bf was just a nice bonus that came with (i kid, i kid).

4/9/07 - i finally found my balls and grabbed onto them tight as i wrote the email (ok fine, my balls werent that big if i gave the ultimatum in an email). so i wrote, rewrote, edited, cried, called and finally sent the email. then i called jamie and cried some more. first time i ever cried over a boy. damn those normal girl feelings.

4/10/07 - went to shas bday happy hour and then went over to his apt for the decision. who knew after that night, my life would change. it didnt dramatically change but it did. if anything he dove right into relationship land while i tried to hold back on all the couple-y stuff. ha! i knew he wanted it too. from that night, ive become what ive always despised, the happy couple girl. am i still that girl today? HELL YES!

so just like our relationship, im sure we'll do something low key tomorrow. which is fine with me. i know im happy and in love when im completely content just being with him... anywhere :)